What Would be the Hardest and Most Fearful Thing you Would Ever Have to Face in Your Lifetime? Why Does This Scare you so Much?
The hardest thing in my life is continuing to grow up. I’m no longer a kid, as much as I can’t seem to accept it. The more days go by, the more I long to go back, to a simple time where I didn’t have to worry about disease, money, food, projects, grades, even getting through the day. It was as simple as waking up. The final facet of growing up, at least for me, is coming up sooner than even I had thought. Last day of school is in 2 months and 8 days. Graduation, in roughly 3 months. The real world, immediately after that, and that’s what freaks me out more than anything. The fact that I feel like I’m going to be thrown into the fray almost unprepared for what’s going to happen. The fear that I’m just going to fail, which isn’t helped by my current, negative trajectory at school. The dread of all the disappointed faces, clicks of the tongue, the, “I knew it“‘s and “told you so“‘s. It’s a very overwhelming notion, which isn’t at all aided by the absolute misery I’ve been experiencing this past month. I’m running out of time, and it freaks me out. I just hope I get a handle of this soon, before it completely gets the best of me.
-J
